Choosing a new handphone

Since i am thinking of enjoying life more and be more carefree.
My current one is a bit outdated, it doesn't take good photos...

I am thinking of buying a new smartphone to help me keep tracks of my daily life, so that i can easily update it to my blog. Who knows, that i might one day be a narcist and upload most of my encounters (plainly just people on the street, or the delicacies that i am about to eat) ^_^

Well, who knows?

Currently thinking of buying an Iph*ne 5 or Samsung Galaxy N*te 2.
Personally, like the second one better, but it is a bit too big as a phone.
But, imo, the first one takes better pictures.

Thinking of buying a cheap Chinese made android tab just to familiarize myself with android, plus i can play if i want to. But, if i am about to buy the second one, i am thinking, why do i need another tab?

My budget is limited also, hm...
With so many things lining up waiting to be bought.
I am thinking that this can wait (should be).
So, oh well, probably just wait and see until march or may of 2013.

Quiz - Love?

Dapat dari BBM, gw ketik ulang per baris, haha :)
Cukup bagus artikel ini...Apa itu CINTA?

Apakah telapak tanganmu berkeringat, jantungmu berdetak cepat, dan suaramu tercekat saat berada di dekatnya?
Itu bukan Cinta, itu Suka.
ya, kadang jantungku masi berdetak cepat, sampai hari ini

Apakah kamu tak bisa melepaskan pandangan atau genggaman dari dirinya?
Itu bukan Cinta, itu Nafsu.
yes, tapi apa bener itu nafsu saja?

Apakah kamu menginginkan dia saat dia sedang tidak ada?
Itu bukan Cinta, itu Kesepian.
ya

Apakah kamu ada di sana karena itulah yang diinginkannya?
Itu bukan Cinta, itu Kesetiaan.
ya

Apakah kamu menerima pengakuan cintanya karena kamu tak ingin menyakitinya?
Itu bukan Cinta, itu Kasihan.
i wish, but this is not our case, right? it is the other way around

Apakah kamu ada di sana karena dia memelukmu atau menggenggam tanganmu?
Itu bukan Cinta, itu Ketergantungan.
nope, not because of this

Apakah kamu ingin memilikinya karena tatapan matanya membuat hatimu berdegup kencang?
Itu bukan Cinta, itu Tergila-gila.
nope, not because of this

Apakah kamu memaafkan kesalahannya karena kamu peduli padanya?
Itu bukan Cinta, itu Persahabatan.
yes,i do


Apakah kamu mengatakan padanya setiap hari bahwa dialah satu-satunya orang yang kamu pikirkan?
Itu bukan Cinta, itu Dusta.
bukan satu2nya, tapi setiap hari ada kupikirkan, karena gw juga memikirkan keluarga dan diri gw sendiri, i think it is justified

Apakah kamu ingin memberikan semua benda kesayanganmu untuknya?
Itu bukan Cinta, itu Sikap dermawan.
no, but semua benda yang kau butuhkan, iya

Apakah hatimu sedih dan sakit saat dia sedang terluka, dan sebisa mungkin ingin mengobati luka hatinya?
Barulah itu Cinta.
apakah yang ini masi tidak jelas?

Apakah kamu tertarik pada orang lain, tapi tetap setia mendampinginya tanpa pernah menyesal?
Barulah itu Cinta.
ya, tak pernah sekalipun gw menyesal mendampingimu selama 7 bulan

Apakah kamu menerima segala kesalahan dan kekurangannya karena itulah bagian dari dirinya?
Barulah itu Cinta.
ya, gw suka sama lu apa adanya, semua yang baik dan buruk dari diri lu

Apakah kamu menangis saat dia sedih meskipun dia kuat?
Barulah itu Cinta.
ya, tapi sayang kau itu bukan kuat, cuma cuek dan gak tau apa yang lu mau

Apakah kamu memafkannya dan bersedia tetap bersamanya saat dia menyakiti?
Barulah itu Cinta.
sudah 6 bulan gw disakiti, dan gw uda membuktikan walau dengan semua rasa sakit itu, gw selalu setia mendampingimu, tapi engkau tak pernah melakukan hal yang sama

Apakah kamu tetap setia apapun yang terjadi, baik saat gembira maupun sengsara?
Barulah itu Cinta.
bukankah yang ini sudah jelas?

Apakah kamu bersedia memberikan hatimu, hidupmu, dan matimu untuknya?
Ya, itulah Cinta.
ya, tanpa perlu berpikir 2 kali

15 minutes of tears

I promised myself to only cry for 15 minutes, but I cried for more than one hour. Cengeng amat nih cowok. Manja ah. Haha

Apa yg bs gw lakuin lg selain menertawakan kebodohan dan kecengengan diri sendiri?
it's ok, i won't blame you, i know you won't intentionally hurt me, but...the bad news is, you did, over and over again

Rasa sakit bisa bikin org menjadi kebal, seperti perasaan yang gw rasakan sekarang, rasanya gw uda numb, gk bisa merasakan apa2 lagi..

Some good quotes

We may think we’ve left the past behind, but it has a way of catching up to us
Though we want to runaway, we are forced to confront our past
And the secrets that it buried must come into the light
And then if we are strong, we are able to move on
Yes, we all need to leave the past behind, and move on toward the future
And if we are lucky, we will have help getting there

Monkey and pigeon

Found this story while browsing for the pics for my


A story about a monkey nurtured by a pigeon



I just thought...wow
Probably not a new story, but somehow, don't ever wonder if animals can love other species, how can we as people not. Haha, i am blabbering again, anyway i just thought it is a good story about love, that it exists everywhere around us...

Guide to a better life

A dear friend gave me this article...

Hope it will be useful to anyone reading this :)

GUIDE To A BETTER LIFE


This is amazing, Randy Pausch 47 years old, and a computer Science lecturer from Mellon University. He died of pancreatic cancer in 2008, but wrote a book “The last lecture” before then, one of the bestsellers in 2007. What a legacy to leave behind…

In a letter to his wife Jai and his children, Dylan, Logan, and Chloe, he wrote this beautiful "guide to a better life" for his wife and children to follow.
May you be blessed by his insight.

Points of How to improve your life
Personality:
1. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
2. Don't have negative thoughts of things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment
3. Don't over do; keep your limits
4. Don't take yourself so seriously; no one else does
5. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip
6. Dream more while you are awake
7. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need
8. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner of his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
9. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
10.Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present
11.No one is in charge of your happiness except you
12.Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn.
Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
13.Smile and laugh more
14.You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

Community:
15.Call your family often
16.Each day give something good to others
17.Forgive everyone for everything
18.Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6
19.Try to make at least three people smile each day
20.What other people think of you is none of your business
21.Your job will not take care of you when you are sick. Your family and friends will. Stay in touch.

Life:
22.Put GOD first in anything and everything that you think, say and do.
23.GOD heals everything
24.Do the right things
25.However good or bad a situation is, it will change
26.No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up
27.The best is yet to come
28.Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful
29.When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it
30.If you know GOD, you will always be happy. So, be happy.

While you practice the entire above, share this knowledge with the people you love, people you school with, people you play with, people you work with and people you live with.
Not only will it enrich YOUR life, but also that of those around you.

Remember, Good Things are for us to share..

Happiness...

Simple quote:

Happiness...
It's something everyone searches for...
Some are sure they'll find it when they move back home
Some think they'll find it by making a new friend
Some hope they'll find it once they defeat the competition

Then, there are those who stopped searching for it
Because they look up one day only to discover...
That it is right in front of them... all of the time...

huh...i always tell myself, i want to have a special life, i want to live my life to the fullest with no regrets. But honestly, i don't know how? How do we know? You know what the scariest part is? I know that life is short, but still, i am not doing anything to make my life more ... colorful...

oh, what shall i do??

Been searching and browsing a lot this day...don't ask where, when, or what..lol
Well, this blog is intended to reveal all my feelings, thoughts, etc...but when i look back at it...
It is still...looks like a puzzle...maybe not a puzzle, a mystery..with all those things kept hidden...

haha....dare to try this? wake up in the morning, call ur loved ones, and tell them "I love ya"
dare u? lol... huh...i don't think i can, not yet... Why is the topic becoming this one? ahhaha..argh, i don't know la... just go with the flow...

New food revelations

Just wanna note this day down...
Something happened today which can be continued a year from now... or more... who knows

Anyway, just read through internet that instant noodles and the cups are safe.
Well, i don't think so....so, more revelations:
- not more than three times instant noodles a month
- not more than three times "nasi padang"

ya...let's try to stick to it...

Another touching quotes (DH0519)

Just watched an episode of a drama series i missed.
The ending words are touching...

I let go of all those things which seems so ordinary
but when u put them together,
they'll make up a life,
a life that really was one of a kind

It's not hard to die when u know u have lived,
and I did, oh...how i lived

So, here's the thing.
" a life that was one of a kind", hm...it make me thinking. Every people is unique. Every life is unique. Your appearance, your body, your lifestyle even your belongings distinguish you from others...

Well, i do know that i have a life that is one of a kind, given all my history until today. I am grateful to God for that, for making me the way i am...but i am not sure if i have already live my life to the fullest...i wanna be happy, creative, fun, brave and perfect.... The question is "how?"

Maybe spontaneous can be the answer for my question (in my case). I don't wanna have any regret anymore....which leads to my thinking about my job now.. (yea, it all comes back to that nowadays...)

How i would love to be given that chance so that i can prove myself and more importantly, lead my own life, the one i desired.....

Here is another quote: " i love him enough to let him hate me"

Plans for the Future?

Hm...do u have plan for your future? like what u wanna be or how u are gonna get it?
well, i probably have one...
but, i gain a valuable lesson from a tv series just now :p

"screw the plan"
"u cant design your life like a building"
"u just live it and it will design itself"
"listen to what the world are telling you to do, and take the lead"

ok, so....imo, we must have a plan, i dunno about that, but for me a plan is some kind of a dream u want to achieve. So, if u have a dream, u will work on achieving it, and hence...u will have a clear path and motivation.... BUT (of course, always a "but") we cant decide the outcome... so, when we bump into something that halt our plan, maybe we should just give in and listen to what the world is telling us to do...

lol....(have some spare time to write this..so..)

So dizzy

16 Oct 2009
At last i recovered my password for this blog...lucky me
Been browsing the internet for a few hours and i am so dizzy..
Today actually been feeling better after 2-3 days of feeling bad, etc2....

15 Oct 2009
Went go UI Job expo
It was such a huge university, i never imagined it will be that vast
oh and it was such a tiring day
Gave back the netbook to my sister

14 Oct 2009
Hm...nothing particular except browsing the internet
Still have such a bad feeling
Gosh, i am still homesick

13 Oct 2009
First day in Jakarta again
I went back to Siantar on 2 Aug 2009, hm...more than 2 months time of marvelous and wonderful time back at home.
Love my family !!

Pengalaman naik bus umum

People are fighting for their lives everyday...
Especially in Jakarta, while taking the public transportation, u can really see that here everyday...whether in the bus or on the road...and when i see it, i am still very lucky, i complain about my internet without realizing many people can't even enjoy electricity out there, or even wonder what do they have to eat tomorrow

that makes me wonder...

what have i done?
have i done my best?
what about the time spent?

I stopped for a moment while talking about the time...u know time flies, it really does...it'll never be back...have i lived my life with no regrets??

another quote :"people have only a few seconds to be young and beautiful, and then it's GONE"

i will try my best. i can promise myself that... :)

PS: always exit from a public transportation with left leg first
:P

Pursuing your dreams

what are my dreams...
hm...i remember...ahaha very clearly...
but i wonder if it is too late for that??
hm...again...who knows what will happen next?

should i??
ahahha whatever :)
i will do what i think that's right for me...right now

Finding and Keeping A Life Partner (cont'd)

::Another perspective::

There are some people in your life that need to be loved from a distance.. It's amazing what you can accomplish when you let go of or at least minimize your time with draining, negative, incompatible, not-going anywhere relationships.



Observe the relationships around you.

• Pay attention... Which ones lift and which ones lean?
• Which ones encourage and which ones discourage?
• Which ones are on a path of growth uphill and which ones are going downhill?
• When you leave certain people do you feel better or feel worse?
• Which ones don't appreciate you?
• Which ones make you feel good, praises you, boosts you with loving and caring words or annotations?

An African proverb states, 'Before you get married, keep both eyes open, and after you marry, close one eye;Before you get involved and make a commitment to someone, don't let lust, desperation, immaturity, ignorance, pressure from others or a low self esteem make you blind to warning signs. Keep your eyes open, and don't fool yourself that you can change someone or that what you see as faults aren't really that important.

• Do you bring out the best in each other?
• Do you compliment and compromise with each other, or do you compete, compare and control?
• What do you bring to the relationship?
• Do you bring past relationships, past hurt, past mistrust, past pain?

You can't take someone to the altar to alter them.
You can't make someone love you or make someone stay.
If you develop self-esteem, spiritual discernment, and 'a life'; you won't find yourself making someone else responsible for your happiness or responsible for your pain.

Seeking status, sex, and security are the wrong reasons to be in a relationship.

What keeps a relationship strong is:
1. trust
2. communication
3. intimacy
4. a sense of humor
5. sharing tasks
6. daily exchanges (meal, shared activity, hug, call, touch, notes, etc)
7. sharing common goals and interests
8. giving each other space to grow without feeling insecure
9. giving each other a sense of belonging and assurances of commitment
10. concern and care for your lover in your own ways.

Finding and Keeping A Life Partner

forwarded in an email by a friend... worth reading

FINDING AND KEEPING A LIFE PARTNER (by Dov Heller, M.A.)

Choosing a life partner should never be based on love. Though this may sound 'not politically correct', there's a profound truth here. Love is not the basis for getting married. Rather, love is the result of a good marriage. When the other ingredients are right, then the love will come. Let me say it again: 'You can't build a lifetime relationship on love alone; You need a lot more!!!

Here are five questions you must ask yourself if you're serious about finding and keeping a life partner:

Question #1: Do we share a common life purpose?
Question #2: Do I feel safe expressing my feelings and thoughts with this person?
Question #3: Is he/she a mensch?
Question #4: How does he/she treat other people?
Question #5: Is there anything I'm hoping to change about this person after we're married?

More thorough explanation:

#1 Marry someone who wants the same thing.

#2 Feeling safe means you can communicate openly with this person (trust). Make sure you feel emotionally safe with the person you plan to marry

#3 A mensch is someone who is a refined and sensitive person. A good person as 'someone who is always striving to be good and do the right.

#4 Is this someone who enjoys giving pleasure to others or are they wrapped up in themselves and self's absorbed? You can be sure that someone, who treats others poorly, will eventually treat you poorly as well.

#5 If you cannot fully accept this person the way they are now, then you are not ready to marry them. In conclusion, dating doesn't have to be difficult and treacherous. You can't change people.

Lead more with your head, less with your heart. It pays to be as objective as possible.
Falling in love is a great feeling, but when you wake up with a ring on your finger, you don't want to find yourself trouble because you didn't do your homework.

Update skripsi...

Hari ini akhirnya selesai bagian Teknik Industrinya untuk skripsi gw...
Senang? boleh lah, tapi....(kenapa selalu harus ada tapinya..lol) masih ada bagian SI nya, yang notabene lebih banyak lagi bagian SI nya, oh iya, setelah SI nya masih ada pembuatan aplikasinya lagi...dalam 16 hari cukupkah ??? o.O

ok, just take a deep breath....and say it again : "I can do it"
Buat teman2 seperjuangan yang lagi berjuang dengan skripsinya yang deadlinenya semakin mendekat, gud luck again :p

Mau refreshing btr ah, target malam ini kelar problem domainnya...bs gk yah?

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update lagi -- tgl 16 jan 2009 --
sisa waktu utk deadlinenya adalah tgl 22 jan 2009 utk pny gw sendiri
itu artinya, dalam 6 hari lagi mesti selesai, lolzzzz
hm...ya sudahlah...let nature takes its course... :p
berusaha sebisanya saja, tak perlu khawatir....rugi khawatirin hal gk penting

Two sides to every story

Ever heard that term?
I heard it once as a title of a song by five (if i'm not mistaken)
Anyway, i'm one of a believer of that term...there's always two sides to every story (well, i'm not quite sure about what this term means, but IMO, it means that everyone has their own opinion about something)

for example :

• you think you know somebody, but do you?
• you are so happy with something, but others may not be
• you are waiting for someone to come, but does that someone is really doing his/her best to come on time?
• you think you love someone, does he/she do too?
• you think you love someone unconditionally, is it really an unconditional love where you can let him/her go without ANY doubt for the sake of his/he happiness? are you really that sincere?

well, i'm not a psychologist, i can't even sort all of my feelings into boxes...
the purpose of this one here, is to enlighten my own feelings whenever i'm down emotionally...
such as, (example again) when i do not get that job, maybe that other person is better or more suitable for that job...

Don't be down, we can always get up again, we can keep climbing till we see the top :)

Rainbow always appear after the rain, not before :P
That's just how life is....colorful

A mother's love

Kenapa rasanya susah blg "thank you" atau "i love you" ke ibu sendiri?
Apa mungkin karena kultur orang timur yang rasanya susah buat ngungkapin perasaan?
Lihat saja orang barat yang "menggembar-gemborkan" tiga kata tersebut, yang di mana menurut gw hal tersebut ok dan sah-sah saja selama yang dirasa itu bener, mungkin kita memang perlu sedikit belajar dari mereka.

Jadi teringat film yg pernah gw tonton lagi. Seorang ibu yang selalu memuji anaknya (yang di ceritanya sih si ibu blg dia belajar dari bule untuk memakai kata: very good, excellent, marvellous), tak peduli seberapa jelek hasil ujian anaknya, tak peduli bakat apa yang dimiliki anaknya.

Now, what makes me thinking is...

• Have you ever thank your mother for waiting for you coming back from school?
• Have you ever thank your mother for preparing your breakfast?
• Have you ever thank your mother for staying up late just to make sure you're okay when you're sick?
• Have you ever thank your mother for buying your favourite chocolate bar when you're young?
• Have you ever thank your mother for helping you doing your handicrafts task?
• Have you ever thank your mother for loving you and thinking about you always wherever you are?

A mother's love in my opinion is unconditional, she can be the strongest woman in the earth to protect her children, yet still having a heart soft enough to shed a tear. It must not be an easy job.

Mum and Dad, you're both the most wonderful mum and dad in this world
I'm sorry for all the bad things i've ever done before, wishing you both to have a wonderful life...

Going Places

hm...how good it sounds...
one day, i'd like to hike a mountain, enjoy the sunset, go to a place where snow falls, fish in a lake, maybe even surf on a surfboard (i said maybe..lol) But then, i realize none will be accomplished without me finishing my thesis (again, skripsi oh skripsi -.-). Quit day dreaming now...lol

though i can't go there now, i'm still allowed to look at the photos right :p
this one is the biggest indoor ice skating in the world, it's located inside the mall of the emirates, the third biggest mall in the world...

yg lain..menyusul