Decision of notes

It is the end of another weekend,
Jakarta is surprisingly cool tonight..
I intended to rewrite and delete some of the posts i have made, regarding you and me...
But, when i was about to delete one of those, i thought "hey, these are original thoughts, real feelings back then"

Another thought came out too, it says "hey, delete it, what if you decide to publish your blog one day for public, and all of it is just about your personal feeling?"

Hm...so, i stopped for a while, thinking of what i must do with all those personal posts. Then with a suggestion from a friend, too...i decided to keep it original, after all, it is my true story, right?

Maybe one day, i will re-read these, and smile or laugh or whatever, but i decided that they are here to stay :) About the blog being not interesting or it being too emotional, etc..i will think of a way to make it readable again...

How to make dragon roll

Well, i love cooking since i was a high school student, but recently, that passion for cooking is alive again..So, here you go...

Ingredients:

2 cups sushi rice.
2-3 nori sheets
10 medium size shrimps (sushi grade).
1/2 cup Tempura
1 Avocado
1 Cucumber (long and even)
50gr Tobiko (flying fish roe)
50gr BBQed eel (sushi grade).
Dragon roll sushi
Dragon roll sushi
Taken by palalalapolly
Making the dragon roll

First thing first, mix the tempura with a little bit of water and stir until combined to a think even mixture. Cut off shrimp tails, and dip the shrimps, one by one, in tempura mixture and deep fry for about 30 sec or until the outside gets golden-brownish.

Tip - leave one shrimp for each roll with the tail uncut to place sticking out of the roll's rear as if it was the dragon's tail.

Slice the cucumber into long slices, and use a peeler to peal thin avocado layers.

Spread the rice on the nori sheet, and flip it over the mat so that the rice is now facing upwards. Lay the avocado the cucumber stiks you have precutted, and line up some tempura shrimps and on top of that slices of eel. Roll it inside-out style and cut the endings, but leave the rest whole for now.

Elegantly, cover the top of the roll with the layers of avocado you made with the peeler, and use the bamboo matt to tighten it to the roll.

Use a little spoon to carefully spread some Tobiko on the roll. You can cover the intire roll with it, or just the top side - it's your call.

Now you can cut, and reline the roll in a shape of a dragon. You can use your imagination to create dragon eyes from tobiko, and dragon antennas from carrot stiks.

Best served with teriyaki sauce on top, and soy sauce aside.

Enjoy!

Our Closure

It has been such a long time since we last met, well, i just have time to enter my blog just now. So, the last time we met was when you were going to Malang again. Again, thank you and your family so much, for everything. We have had our time and our shots, everything that needs to be said and done has been said and done...

Actually, i was thinking of deleting most of this blog entries that revolves around us, haha, because when i read it again, i feel so ashamed, u know that i am easily ashamed and my face will turn to red., Even now, my face seems to be hot, haha... Anyway, i decided not too, because memories will live on, even though we are not together anymore.

That is okay, I am fine and happy now...
Don't worry about me, I know you will be fine and i will be well too :)

Everything is over
I know it is for the best
I just hope that both of us will be happy
I won’t shed a tear for you anymore
What we have is over
And we have to go each of our own ways
Good luck, my friend
I can at last say that I am happy
Thank you for everything

A Weekend Together

Nah, ini cerita kita lagi, setelah si PenPen pulang. Malamnya hanya diabisin buat ngobrol yah. Besoknya pas si acha masuk, lu ketiduran terus, dia bilang “si itu tidur garuk2”, haha... Y uda, gw tutupin pake selimut, :)

Minggunya, nyokap sama bokap ke bandara jemput koko, nah, di sini lu ajarin gw main piano sama masak spagetti, hehe... well, i had fun :)

Hm, i was really happy these 3 days...
When i ask you, you said you are happy too...
I think this is a really good start for us...
You just have to give us more time...
Trust in me and you....
I really hope that we can still do this

PS:
gw jd ingat kalimat "jangan bla bla bla..."
haha, kalau emank ketemu lagi, jgn ingatin gw akan hal itu XD"

First Encounter with Pen

Hari Jumat ini, gw ikut teman gw pulang dari kantor ke Teluk Gong. Lu bilang ada PenPen di sana. Gw pikir. “Ok, ketemu mah ketemu aja, toh memang kalau dia teman lu, gak ada salahnya gw ketemu sama dia”. Begitu sampai di daerah teluk gong, gw minta teman gw nurunin gw di indomart.

Hmm...awalnya sih gw minta diturunin di sana, karena gw sendiri mulai ragu, mau ketemu dia atau enggak, makanya pas itu gw telepon lu lagi. Tapi habis telepon itu gw uda bertekad, “ya, tak ada yang perlu ditakutkan, toh harus dihadapi juga”. Tapi setidaknya, gw gak bisa kasih dia lihat kalau “mantan” lu itu amburadul dan acak-acakan....(yea, i hate to admit it, but that is what we are now)... Haha, makanya gw beli alat cukuran di sana, sekalian shampoo karena gw kira shampoo di rumah uda mau abis, tapi ternyata masih ada yang gede...haha....

Tau gak gw cukurannya di mana? Di depan rumah lu, di samping gapura yang mau masuk itu, untung gak digong-gong in tuh pada..Haha...

Setelah semua selesai, gw uda mau masuk, tapi terdengarnya suara piano, ya gw uda tau itu lu, siapa lagi . Ya akhirnya gw mondar mandir di luar sambil telepon. Sampai akhirnya lu bukain....

Begitu masuk, kenalan sama si PenPen, trus mandi. Habis itu ngobrol bentar sama nyokap tentang kekuatiran dia ke lu. Dan gw rasa semuanya uda gw omongin ke lu malam itu...

Hm...i have to admit that, you did some romantic small things that only couples do (even with PenPen in the room). Gak tau yah kalau memang gw yang lebay sendiri atau memang lu juga ada merasa “sedikit” rasa di hati, only you know that. Mulai dari main-mainin karet, sampai merah terus lu elus-elus...abis itu lu tidur nyender pakai bantal di kaki gw while touching my hands...

Dufan Ancol

31 Maret 2011 - Dufan Ancol -

Hari ini adalah hari pertama kita jalan berdua sejak sekian lama. Hehe...
Pertama kali naik hysteria, serem juga liatnya dari atas ke bawah, haha... Halilintar sampai 4 kali kemaren yah :P. Naik boom boom car tapi gak bisa jalan, cape deh...dapat mobil yang rusak-rusak. Hujan sebentar dan makan apa lagi kalau bukan McD di sana.

Gw bener2 sangat senang hari ini, bisa menemani lu dan ditemanin oleh lu ke sana.
Malamnya jam 3 lu pinjam telp, gw uda mulai curiga ada hal yang gak beres. Tapi gw pinjamin dan gw ketiduran.... Abis lu balik, gw ada tanya ke lu, di situlah lu cerita kalau misalnya lu sudah tak berharap pada dia...Jika seandainya kau berpikir bahwa gw senang saat mendengar ini, gw bisa jawab ke lu, “tidak”. Yang gw pikirkan kemaren hanya, bagaimana perasaan lu, apakah lu sedih atau kecewa? Di saat itu juga, lu bilang kalau sebenarnya lu pernah cerita ke si MixMax tentang kita, dan lu sudah mencoba membuka hati lu ke gw.

I really thank you for that, i do...

Cuma gini, ini pandangan gw yah, pada saat itu, ketika lu mencoba membuka hati lu ke gw, di dalam hati lu sudah ada dia, jadi wajar saja jika gw gak bisa masuk ke sana. Benar kan, mana bisa lu masukin gw ke sana sedangkan di hati lu ada dia? Satu permintaan gw, ud...

Don’t give up on us, not yet....
I still love you, and i still have faith for both of us

Saat lu bilang lu ingin dapat kehidupan yang baru di aussie, 1 pihak gw senang, 1 pihak lagi gw sedih, karena itu artinya gw gak akan bisa melihat lu lagi, setidaknya tidak jika lu di aussie dan gw di jakarta. Gw tau kalau lu ini bukan anak yang bener-bener carefree, lu ini juga pastinya pernah berpikir masa depan lu itu mau gimana dan ke mana.

Masa depan....

Jika gw berpikir tentang masa depan, aneh ya, yang kepikiran malah gw sama lu. Haha... Gw pengen gw bisa menemani lu, melihat tawa lu, melihat senyum lu, bisa masak bareng lu, melewati hari libur atau hari apapun berdua, setiap pagi jika bangun tidur, lu ada di samping gw, setiap malam sebelum tidur, bisa meluk dan cium sekali bilang “good night, sweet dream”. Haha, kedengaran agak lebay ini ya? but, i honestly feel that way...Am i selfish?

I still love you, and i want to be with you
With you, I don’t have to be anyone else other than me
Don’t you feel the same?
Don’t blame me for still hoping....
And please, open up your heart to me once again....

If One Day

If one day you feel like crying, call me...
I don't promise that i will make you laugh
But i can cry with you...

If one day you want to run away
Don't be afraid to call me...
I don't promise to ask you to stop
But i can run with you...

If one day you don't want to listen to everyone
Call me...
I promise to be there for you
And I promise to be very quiet