Bleeding heart

The title may seem a bit extreme, but that is what i am feeling right now...

I just broke up with my beloved yesterday morning, at about 12 am...
Those happy memories suddenly turn out to be so hurtful, my heart just can't take it anymore..I can't sleep until 4.30 am, and got up at 6.30 am. I am starting to blame all those things around me, which i think is inappropriate.

I was wondering, what will happen if i was not assigned here, and was assigned in jakarta instead, maybe our relationship won't have to end like this.

I loved you once, unconditionally, i don't care who you are, and don't want to ask you for anything else, just that you love me back. But now, you said, all those feelings are gone. What can i do? shattered mirrors can't never be put back together...

You said that you want to try to work on us, but i can't see any efforts, all i am seeing is that i am the only one to support both of our weight.

Farewell, my love

You are and forever will be my first one, you taught me how to love, you taught me how to cry, you taught me how to miss and devote all my feelings to a particular someone.

All those happy memories seems to resurface...i don't know what to do anymore, but keeping you here while your heart is already gone won't have much difference, it will all leads to more heartaches...


Even though when i am writing this, my heart still aches and tear still drops, but i know it is time to let go.. You are in my life once, i will never forget you...