Stressful worklife

Dear diary,
No other place to turn to, i can only turn to you
I used to have someone to talk to about these stuffs
Back then, no matter how painful and stressful the work can be
I can always turn to that someone..
I just know that, every time i go back home...
You will always wait for me, with your laugh and smile

Now, don't get me wrong, i am not trying to use these words to get you back
It is just that i need to write these feelings somewhere, you know that right
That is why i don't label this post "for you", i use "my life" as the label

Anyway, i got into some trouble and it is painful and stressful enough that i want to cry, but i can't. Either it is because the tear won't come out or because I am too proud to cry and discuss this feeling with my colleagues. I don't know that this work can cause me such a great pain. If i knew, i wouldn't have accepted it.

Dear diary,
Now i know, i can't always depend on you
I must be able to stand up by myself
I keep telling myself "don't worry, you will be alright"
But it seems that "alright" is not here yet, it is still far from sight...

This past month i have been so hurt and painful
I don't deny that the breakup actually took a big toll on my life
I sometimes wonder, why do i have to fall in love with you if it will only end like this..It is too painful, I still love you very much at the time i broke up with you.
And probably still do...

No, i have to forget you. You are not mine anymore. As much as i love the words "i'm yours" you wrote on your YM status long time ago. I know it already ends. It hurts, but yes, i have to move on...I really do...

I am sorry i have to ym you again tonight, please know this that, actually i intended not to ym lu anymore..but it is just that suddenly this work pose such a major problem that i don't know who to turn to.. I thank you from the depth of my heart for listening...

All will be well...
One day..for sure..I believe